This is always the toughest time of the year for me. For the last three years, I have gotten really sick. As the weather changes I also pick up my mileage for marathon season. My immune system gets diminished and I get hit by the little germ factories in my house… the kids. Right now, I write this laying in the bed. My sixth straight day in the bed. I’m going quite stir crazy, so I thought maybe I should finally blog again.

This time of the year is also tough because we’re closing out the books. And I hate talking money. We have to go through the budgets to see what we did right and what we did wrong, so we can set the next year’s budgets. We have to hound all of our clients to pay all of their old bills. We have to renew all of our contracts for the following year. We have to set client budgets for the following year. We have to do staff reviews and that always brings up raises. It’s the most stressful and worst part of being a business owner. I wish I could just never talk money and only come up with winning strategies and awesome creative.

The health issue and the financial issues aren’t completely separate issues. The work stress is probably the biggest detriment on my health. I just go hard until my body collapses. Full throttle is all I know. The demons of my past can’t catch me if I’m always running, figuratively and literally.

All this time in bed has given me a lot of opportunity to not only catch up on superhero shows but to also think about about my content. It’s so scattered and inconsistent. And it has been for many years.. You guys know how much I love pumping out content but the problem I have is that I’m too interested in too many things. Some days I like to talk about politics. Some days I like to talk about marketing. Some days I like to talk about entrepreneurship. And some days I like to talk about fitness.

But isn’t that okay? That just means I’m a real person. I do focus on different things. Why should I try to fake it and be focused on just one thing? That’s not me. I should be transparent and authentic in all of my content. As for my readers, some things they will find interesting and some things they won’t. What they will always find is the struggles of a real entrepreneur.

Really that is what is missing in the market place. We read and watch enough content about superstars who are balling out. YouTube and the magazine racks are full of those stories. What we don’t see are the struggles of the normal everyday entrepreneur. Maybe instead of getting focused, this blog should do the opposite. Maybe it should be unfocused so that you can actually help me get focused. Maybe it should be a place for me to just vent. Sometimes written, sometimes audio and maybe one day I’ll get back on the Vlog.

Sidenote: I adore vlogging but the video team has been too slammed to help me. I’m hiring a third video editor now, which will hopefully give us the bandwidth for me to hop back on it.

I don’t mean to be all over the place today. That’s just where the fever has me. Delirious.

What I’m Watching: I just finished The Punisher and it was AWESOME. It’s my new favorite Marvel Netflix show.

What I’m Reading: It’s Not How Good You Are, It’s How Good You Want To Be by Paul Arden. It’s a very short pocket Bible for creatives.

What I’m Training For: A big goal for 2017 was to PR at the Kiawah Marathon. Unfortunately, it’s now looking like this illness will stop me from running the marathon this coming Saturday. I’m pretty bummed. Next up is the Disney Dopey – a 5k, 10k, half marathon and marathon – 4 straight days – in early January.

What I’m Listening To: Uncivil podcast by Gimlet Media. It’s about the untold stories of the Civil War.