I began reviewing all my posts from 2018 with the goal of publishing a “Best of 2018” post. I immediately realized how embarrassed and disappointed in myself I am.
For starters, it wasn’t honest. 2018 was by far the hardest year I’ve ever had professionally. Push suffered a lot. It was a real struggle. All the while I put on this fake smile and acted like we were crushing it every day.
But what really disappointed me was how self centered my content was. I fell into the social media “look at me, look at me” trap. And no offense, you’re in that trap too.
Look at me crushing entrepreneurship.
Look at me traveling to cool places.
Look at me crossing another finish line.
Aren’t I awesome?
I read my posts and thought “shut the hell up, douchebag.” That’s why I went so dark the last three weeks of the year. I didn’t like myself very much.
The Internet is 98% fake ass bullshit of people pretending to be something they’re not. Please don’t get mad at me. You keep doing you. If “fake it till you make it” is your motto, then by all means, keep on keeping on. That’s the world we live in but that’s just not me. Maybe it used to be. That’s not the 39 year old beat up Wesley, who now has what feels like five lifetimes of experience.
I’m going to keep publishing daily content with the goal of putting out more content in 2019 than I’ve ever published. The biggest difference is that I’m not going to be focused on ME. I’m going to be focused on you. On us. We’re a team. There will be a whole lot less “I” and a whole lot more “we.” 2018 was the year of Positive Vibes. 2019 is the year of WE.
I have one big rule – if my content doesn’t help someone else get better, it doesn’t go out.
No more “look at me” bullshit. It’s about how we can get better together.